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Praise for What We Lost in the Dark
"With soaring, lyrical prose and a deep understanding of human strength and frailty, Jacquelyn Mitchard aims her unflinching narrative gaze at the mysteries of death, life, love, and loss. Finding beauty in even the darkest of tragedies, her writing will make you hurt—but it will also make you hope."
—Robin Wasserman, author of The Waking Dark
Praise For What We Saw At Night
Spring 2013 Kids’ Indie Next Pick
“Allie’s...voice [is] honest and real...fascinating looks at both Parkour and a disease so unconventional that it turns the lives of patients and families upside down.”
—Booklist, High Demand Review
“Dangerously addictive, breathtakingly beautiful, terminally awesome.”
—Lauren Myracle, New York Times bestselling author of Shine
“A thrilling ride through the darkness... Dark, suspenseful and quietly beautiful.”
—Melissa Walker, author of Small Town Sinners
"The plot is intricately woven, with twists at every turn. Mitchard's exemplary writing takes a masterful detour into young adult territory."
—Karin Slaughter, New York Times bestselling author of Criminal
“What We Saw at Night is an engaging blend of real-world drama involving a life-and-death illness and a whodunit thriller. Imagine John Green's recent The Fault in Our Stars in a mashup with a Nancy Drew mystery. Plus some roof jumping and wall scaling.”
"The fast pace is set from the beginning with Juliet’s dazzling jump across the buildings... recommended for readers who enjoy a unique twist on realistic fiction."
"Atmospheric, melancholy... breathtaking."
“This latest from Mitchard is quickly paced and intricately plotted, with flares of humor cobbled into the dialogue…. The suspense will keep [readers] engrossed.”
“An interesting page-turner…the cliff-hanger ending will have most readers waiting for the next installment.”
—School Library Journal
“WHAT WE SAW AT NIGHT is a well-crafted, well-paced crime thriller about friendship, disability, first love and the choices we make about how to spend our short time on this earth.”
“What We Saw At Night is a very unique book in many ways. I loved the writing, the mystery, the suspense, and the characters. There is nothing formulaic about it at all, which was also refreshing.”
—One Day YA
Jacquelyn Mitchard is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of The Deep End of the Ocean, the very first Oprah Book Club pick, as well as over twenty other critically acclaimed books for adults and teens. A nominee for several National and International Awards, she served on the 2004 Fiction Jury for the National Book Award. In addition, she is a longtime journalist and regular contributor to Real Simple and Parade magazines. Most recently, she has been named Editorial Director of Merit Press, the new Young Adult imprint at F+W, launching in Fall 2012.
Chapter One: All the Lost Pieces
Picture yourself in a helicopter, looping slowly down from heaven.
First, it looks like a child’s map of what Earth offers—green and blue and beige, dark and light. The green resolves into broad hills, thick with trees: a green beard chopped off by the craggy throats of glacial bluffs, dropping away to sparkly beaches. Even from this great height, the water is so clear that you can see the bottom, and the bottom could be hundreds of feet from the surface. You think, it’s a sea. But no, it’s a lake, massive and majestic. The greatest of all lakes, it’s called Superior.
Now you descend.
You can tell the red pines from black spruce at this height. You begin to hear the restless fingers of the wind among all those branches. Closer, you spot the little town. It’s named after a harbor narrow as a creek but deep as a river. No one pays attention to the small freighters that load and unload there. Everyone sees the big, winged yachts with their showy masts, polished deck rails, and ironic names. Nick’s Waterloo. Enter the Titan.
That’s the pretty side of towns. There’s a dark side, and an even darker side – and there was before I was ever born.
There are ghosts.
Some of them are ordinary ghosts, the lost and drowned who kissed their children and went hopefully off to their work and never returned. They died in terror. No one here tonight thinks of the most famous boat that plied Lake Superior, the one immortalized in song, The Edmund Fitzgerald, an iron ore boat, sank in a gale just fifteen miles from Whitefish Bay, with twenty-nine men, sons and fathers and husbands. That was just one of the boats, wooden and steel, claimed by the lake; there have been hundreds. Of course, there are hundreds not even counting the fishing boats and pleasure boats and little sailboats with two people who set out smiling into the sun and end up soaked and disoriented in a world of hurt.
Sometimes, if the boat capsizes close to land, searchers recover the bodies.
Even before somebody wrote a song about The Edmund Fitzgerald, children as young as my little sister Angie knew that the song just took a line from something the old people have always said: Lake Superior never gives up her dead.
None of the bodies from The Edmund Fitzgerald was ever found.
And yet, people are drawn to Superior, as if the iron in its ribs exerts a magnetic force.
You are, too. So set down gently. Your rotors spin slower, then fall silent. The helicopter disappears. There never was one.
There’s a town square, just a little too old and well-used to be tacked-on for tourists – although tourists flock to Iron Harbor for reasons I’ve never been quite able to fathom. At the center stands a monument to Amos Hayden of the Union’s First Minnesota infantry regiment, another ghost, sweet and sad. The town’s Civil War hero, he was a miner’s son. At Gettysburg, when nothing except a doomed charge with fixed bayonets could hold back the Rebels, the general turned to the First Minnesota, the soldiers who were closest to him. Two hundred and sixty-two men charged, and two hundred and fifteen died. Not a single man deserted. It was over in fifteen minutes. They gave their lives for an idea that not all of them probably even understood.
Amos Hayden was only seventeen. His statue is here, but he still sleeps in that ground so far away.
Was he brave or only young?
Did he have a moment to think of his mother? Or the lakeshore where he skipped stones, or the summer stars so close you felt you could reach up and play with them like beads? Did a girl love him and wait for him to come back to her. Did he know that he might never again open the door on an icy wind that slapped him to run until he glowed?
Tonight, nobody is thinking of Amos Hayden dying young and alone. It’s late fall, and people visiting this town are taking advantage of the warmth of an extended autumn. They stroll past the Flying Fish restaurant and Borealis Books, with its neat scalloped wooden fringes—each painted to resemble a famous volume of prose. Even the tall pale girl with the uncombed auburn hair, who stops in front of the statue and stares. . . the tall pale girl who is me … even she isn’t really thinking of Amos Hayden, although I remember looking up into his earnest and good-natured face, the face that would always be young. Twenty streets.
Only later, when I passed the scene of the place where I had the only true mental meltdown I would ever have in my life, did I stop to consider Amos Hayden. I wondered then, how could the most innocent of heroes and the pond scum of sinners rise from this one small place? Iron Harbor is very small indeed, four hundred people, four thousand in summer.
That Sunday night was only a few weeks after my best friend’s murdered body was found.
If she were here, Juliet would not be an ordinary ghost. She’d have been an angry ghost, punishing and malign. I was angry, too.
So that night I walked into one of the two clothing stores and I stole a poncho.
I had never stolen so much as a pack of gum.
If all the boutiques in Beverly Hills had opened, all at once for my own personal plunder, and I could run through them and keep whatever I wanted—until my arms and shopping carts were filled—I would sooner have chosen a rhinestone cat collar than a poncho. And I don’t even have a cat.
The one I pulled down was woven in shades of green, from mint to forest —a thick, subtly striped garment with the kind of oily, expensive feeling that seems to scoff at all weather. Ladies from Chicago bought these to wear on their sailboats. The store was a typical wannabe Native American thread-and-head shop that is required on the map of every tourist town.
I slipped the thing on.
Then, I walked out the door.
The owner, an old bearded hippie guy everybody called Corona, watched me curiously. He didn’t say a word.
Corona’s store was of the few places that Juliet and Rob and I had never been able to break into. Corona was in the gifted program for theft prevention.
I call it “breaking in,” but we never broke a thing.
We were way too good for that. We left things just as they were, or a little tidier. Juliet could be light-fingered, when it came to expensive wine and trinkets, but Rob and I kept her in check. She was the first one to get a set of lock picks (you can buy them online) and we all quickly followed her lead. The tres compadres, we roamed the night, from fancy, faux Swiss ski chalets in the hills where we sipped champagne in the owners’ hot tubs to the music store where we pounded our palms on drums or ran our fingers over the electric guitar strings, me playing the only chords I knew, the opening riff to ‘Smoke on the Water’.
We owned Iron Harbor, Minnesota.
It was ours.
Really, though, Iron Harbor, and our place in it, in its night landscape, was mostly Juliet’s. Juliet was always at the wheel, no matter who was really driving. Rob and I rode shotgun to her desire.
Her chief desire?
That was to be free – not free of us, her closest friends on earth, but of this place and of her life in it.
Now she was free, forever, of the former and the latter.
Wearing the poncho like a flag, I reached the end of the street. Then I stopped and burst into tears. It was a warm night, sixty-eight degrees at nine o’clock. It’s never this warm, this late in the year, so far north, Canada except for a checkpoint.
Corona had joined me at the corner. He was a tall old guy, thin to the point of gauntness, with a face I now noticed was lined not with the wrinkles of care, but with decades of quiet amusement. His eyes brimmed with a surpassing kindness. Why had we ever tried to burgle his little place? As we gazed at each other, I saw that he knew that we had tried, and it was already forgiven.
“It’s okay, little dude,” he said.
Corona took the phone out of my hand and scrolled down until he found the favorite labeled Mom<...
Allie Kim’s fatal allergy to sunlight, XP, still confines her to the night. Now that she’s lost her best friend Juliet to an apparent suicide, the night has never felt darker—even with Rob at her side.
Allie knows why Juliet killed herself: to escape the clutches of Garrett Tabor, whom the trio saw committing an unspeakable crime. Garrett is untouchable; The Tabors founded the world-famous XP clinic that keeps Allie and Rob alive and their small Minnesota town on the map.
Allie can’t rest until Garrett is brought to justice. But her obsession jeopardizes everything she holds dear. Not even Parkour can distract her; nothing reminds her more that Juliet is gone. When Rob introduces Allie to the wildly dangerous sport of nighttime deep diving, Allie assumes he’s only trying to derail her investigation... until they uncover the horror terrible secret Garrett Tabor has hidden under Lake Superior.